Thursday, August 26, 2010

3 1/2 weeks...

It is hard to believe it has been only 3 1/2 weeks since I had my LB put it- it seems like it has been a lot longer than that.
I am now down about 15 pounds which is great.
The hard thing is I have no restriction so it is so hard to make all good chioces, stay within my calories, without any "help".
I do have a fill on Wed of next week and I am so excited, I am really looking forwrd to it (well,all but the giant needle part) and looking forward to getting some help from the band the way I am supposed to:)
I do find that I am eating slower, not drinking liquids during the meals, trying to follow all the rules, but I do NOT get full, and I have yet to find a food that doesn't go down just fine! Oh well, that will all come in time I am sure.
I am doing well according to the goals I put in place before the surgery so hopefully that will continue to where I felel like you can actually see results.
It is amazing how 15 pounds at this point barely makes a difference. My pants, that were super tight, feel slighty better, my shirts are a little looser, but for the most part I feel as I look exactly the same. I can't wait to get to the point where 15 pounds makes a huge difference and a pant size:)
Soon....I am confident it will happen soon!

Monday, August 9, 2010

10 pounds! Holla!

Well, I am feeling better today. I still have some pain/tenderness in the area where my port is, but overall feeling better which is good becuase I have a huge freaking pile of laundry to tackle!
Today I am down 10 pounds, I lost about 4 pounds Pre Op and then another 6 since.
I am doing ok, but feeling like I am on a "diet". I don't have any restiction so all being good falls to me w/o the help of my band.
Tomorrow is one week and today I started my mushy food phase. I had oatmeal and cottage cheese for dinner. Yum. Who knew that could taste that good:) I think I will make talapia for dinner tonight with sweet potatoes as they are both on the mushy food list! Mmmmm......
I go in tomorrow for my one week follow up and to schedule my first fill. I am looking forward to feeling full and staying full longer, but the thought of PB'ing, Sliming and all of that makes me terrified:) I am sure I will handle it all as it comes, but now the fear of the unknown is huge!
10 down....90 to go:)

Thursday, August 5, 2010

More pain than I thought...

I am finally feeling human again. Yesterday (the day after) was much more painful than I thought. It is sore at the incision site, and this morning I am doing ok, but the site where my port it hurts more than I thought it would. I am going through an emotional roller coaster as well.... I am happy, sad, exctied and nervous about what the next year will bring. Right now I just need to focus on the immediate, making it through the next few days of the liquid diet and then the mushy phase. It is strange when I drink, it is like the air bubbles have to come up to make room for the liquid to squeeze through. It feels interseting.
It is hard to imagine being beyond this phase, where I can eat normally and what everyone else Is eating.
All in all, so far so good for day 3:)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I did it:) Let the fun begin:)

So I did it! I have joined you all on your band journey. I am feeling pretty good, the surgery went great and was really smooth. I am home now and in bed snuggling with my daughter watching Sprout:)
So, I have a question for you vetren long does it take for your HEAD to catch up with your BODY? My body isn't hungry, but my head is starving. I think about food and then feel this strange void as I know I can't have it, I can't cheat, it is not an option. I Just can't do it. I have a feeling this next month is going to be an emotional roller coaster as much as it is a physcial one.
Thanks for the support;) I am so happy to be here and can't wait to start posting some good stats!

Monday, August 2, 2010

No body said no....

So, I am at the count down. 11 hours. I am so excited and nervous I can hardly handle it. I am mentally exhausted with all the thinking I have done about this. I am actually trying to get over the depression that I have let myself get to this point.
I find it funny, how no one said no during this process. I almost expected people(the staff, Dr.'s, nurses, any of them) to look at me as I walked into the place say "No way, what are you doing here?" "you don't weigh enough to get this done!" but body sent me away, no one even gave me a sideways glance, they just all smiled and were excited to work with me through this process.
Next time I post I will be on the other side!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Such a Pretty Face....

I found this book at Costco yesterday (Seriously, my trifecta of happiness lies in Costco, Trader Joe's and Target) called Such a Pretty Face. I am only about 100 pages into it, but it is about a woman who has had weight loss surgery (doesn't say what type) and has lost 170 pounds. One of the things that she talks about is how her relationships have changed. She has one friend who she has been BFF's with since middle school, and their relationship has always based around food. Making cookie, pies, pasta, whatever...and eating it. Now that she has lost weight, their friendship is strained, the friend is horrible to her and seems beyond repair.
Now, this makes me think of one of my own best friends, love her, have been best frieneds for 14 years and we have always weighed about the same, we lost weight together once, about 10 years ago, and have been steadily gaining togehter since. We travel together and tackle a new city based on where/what we are going to eat:) When I go visit her we go to all our favorite dining spots. I had not told her until this week about getting the lapband, and I wasn't sure if I was even going to, but I felt dishonest not telling her. She was supportive and kind and encouraging, but I wonder if when I loose this weight (100 pounds would be my goal) will things change? Will our friendship change once our visits are not spents moving from one food vendor to another?
Has anyone been in this situation? Have your pre-band relationships changed?
Aside from that, I am at 2 days until Surgery - YAY! I am down about 5 pounds, they wanted 10, but I am hoping for 7 or 8 by Tuesday and that it will be fine.
I am loading up on clear broths, popsicles and yogurt, thinking this will be my meal choices for the next couple of weeks.
Can't wait, already planning my trip to Tahiti in 14 months where I can walk the beaches with confidence and not have to apply baby powder 17 times a day.....