Friday, July 30, 2010

T minus 4 days....

It is hard to believe but in less than 4 days I get banded! I am so excited, nervous, happy, sad...all at the same time if that is possible.
I have been looking at this as an option for months now, and it always sounded like the perfect option, but now that it is here, I am getting nervous.
Not as much nervous for the surgery, but more for the change for the rest of my life. Changing my relationship with food, changing how I see myself as a person.
I also am not telling many all. One friend, my DH and my parents. So I feel like I am keeping this huge secret and spend so much time wondering if people are going to be able to figure it out:)
I have loved to follow everyone blogs and honestly they have been the #1 reason why I have decided to do this. I feel like you have this great community that I can't wait to be a part of:)
I got the call this Monday that insurance approved, and from there, they scheduled for 8 days later. I am struggling with my 900 calorie a day diet, but getting through it. I am then wondering - what If I don't loose enough weight before the surgery- would they turn me away when I go in? Has anyone cheated on the Pre-Op Diet? Am I failing already as I am having thoughts of cheating at only 3 days in? Oye..... I need to get out of my own head some days:)
Thanks for reading and for following my journal and helping keep me accountable!