Rough Month

Well, it has been a rough month. I have hit the plateau of all plateaus! I have been gaining and losing the same 2 or 3 pounds for the past 5 weeks. It is so frusterating! I did start to do Atkins last Monday (8 days ago) to see if I could kick start something - it seems to be working, but not as rapidly as others (and I have been hard core about following and sticking to the 20 net carbs a day) and it has been going ok. I said I would to it for 2 weeks to jump start and see if I could kick myself through this plateau.
I was 192.2 this morning so in a perfect world I will get into the 180's next week and stay there!
I have a goal for myself to be at 187 by the time I go to visit my family in June - that is the 19th so that gives me one month to lose 5 pounds. I can totally do that! I just have to do everything to ensure that happens:) The reason for that number is becuase when I saw them in January the last time I saw them I was 207, so for me, I really wanted to be at least down 20 more pounds before I saw them the next time.
I do feel like I just am not seeing the results in the mirror. I felt like I was in a solid size 14 and then I put on some 16's tonight and they were perfect fit- I thought I would OUT of this size. I just feel like I have been in the SAME clothes for the last 20 pounds and I am just sick of it. I have some awesome designer jeans but I have so much muffin top when I wear them that I have to wear a loose shirt. I don't know,I am in a funk tonight, I just thought that 192 would FEEL different and instead I still feel the same. Big. Sigh.
I have high hopes that 187 will make me feel amazing, but not sure that 5 pounds will make that much of a mental difference....

I made it, am here to stay!

So I have made it to Onederland. Today I weighed in at 194.2. That makes 74 pounds for me and I could not be happier. Well, hell, who am I trying to kid - I could be happier if that was 100 pounds and I was done losing but I will take it:)
I seem to be averaging about 1 - 1.5 a week, which works for me. This still allows me treats from time to time, wine 2 nights a week and one date night out with DH. One date night I usually have a nice steak dinner, couple glasses of wine, and a few bites of dessert. So for the most part I am feeling good with the balance I have and still losing. I am also hiting the gym about 3-4 times a week.
I wanted to capture a day in my life after the Dr. Oz show:
7:00 - Coffee w/ FF French Vanilla creamer
9:00 - either Protein Shake or Turkey Bacon and Greek Yogurt
12:00 - Usually big bowl air popped popcorn and chicken meat balls
3:00- Usually a 200-300 snack.
6:00 - dinner, usually piece of fish/meat/chicken and veggies- or once a week Turkey Tacos
9:00 - some treat - WW Ice Cream or Arctic Zero
For a total of around 1200 - 1300 calories a day.

I am totally addicted to Arctic Zero Ice Cream. I take about 1/2 pint (75 calories - Whoop!) of the chocolate with 2 T of the powder chocolate peanut butter- I mix the PB so it is more of a sauce consistency. Then pour that on the Ice Cream, add 1 T of Lite Hershey's syrup and a little FF Redi Whip. SEriously it is a 150 calorie sundae and a little bit of bliss:)

So so SOOOOOOOOO close!

I have been flirting with Onderland for about 2-3 weeks now. I am going from 200.2 -203 and I just can not seem to break through. What a lousy time for a plateau:) I am begining to think that my scale is not capable of a reading that starts with a 1:)
I have actually this week worked out 3 times, stayed at 1200 calories and still can not break through. I even gave up wine to see that number - which is a big deal, I like me some wine:) Hopefully this weekend!
I have discovered the Artic Zero Ice Cream (thanks Joey!) OMG I am in love. I take abou 1/2 a pint (only 75 calories! Whoop!) and then put some lite Hersheys Syrup (1 T for 25 calories) and then 2 T of PB2 (the powdered peanut butter) in the Choc Peanut Butter flavor and make it the consistancy of a sauce and poor them both over. pretty much the best 145 calories of my day:)

57...and counting:)

I found myself doing a Bing Search tonight on how many calories in a bottle of Red Wine. LOL. Actually it is only 500, which is less than one margarita! Awesome!
I have been doing well, I have still enjoyed the holidays with some treats here and there, and a glass of wine more often than not, and I have managed to still loose a little bit and end the year 57 pounds lower than the day I started my Pre Op Diet. I will totally take it!
I hope that 2011 brings all of you a wonderful year as well as the number on the scale that you have been waiting to see. For me that number is 178. I am about 33 pounds away from that. Amazing to think I am only 33 pounds away from goal. Kinda scary, but amazing in the same. My son took a picture of me tonight and i was shocked that I didn't have to delete it before someone else took a look at it. That is wasn't the first in line with to remove the picture from the camera. That may be the biggest victory of this year:)

Plateau....bastard

So I have been reading everyone elses posts about hitting a plateau, but in the past 4+ months I have not hit any nor have I really had any big issues with temptation. For some reason this week all of that is shot to hell.
I have been at the same weight all week, and have been so tempted. I ate a truffle today - not a big deal, but considering I have had no issues with tempation this is a huge deal. I want to eat. Everything. I want wine. Lots of it.
and I have 4 nights out next week, with friends and work parties so this is not a good time to be facing issues with temptaion.
I just got a fill 2 weeks ago, but I still can eat pizza and way to much food, so I think I may need another one.
Here is hoping I can make it through the week next, I can live with little to no loss, but I am praying for no gain!
I go home to my mom and dads (several states away) in about 6 weeks, I am hoping and praying to hit the 60 pound mark by the time I go. Here is hoping!!

50.....Hard to even believe it!

So, yesterday I hit 50 pounds! WHOOP! I have dreamed for 10 years about loosing 50 pounds and honestly up until a few months ago had believed that it would never happen. It has been harder than I thought (The band isn't magic, I still own what I put in my mouth) but I could not have done it without the band.
It has been 4 months and 3 days I have been banded and I believe it is the best decision I have ever made.
Hard to believe I am more than 1/2 way to goal! I wanted to loose 90 pounds in my first year, Hard to believe that I KNOW I will!

Half Marathon - Check!

Well, I did it! Yesterday I completed my first half marathon! I walked most of it, but ran some as well, and it was just such a high:) I am so proud of myself! It is one of those things where I could have done this 45 pounds ago, but I know that I would have really wrecked my body, where now, I did it, I felt a little sore, but not bad. I was sore today, but not unbearable and it is muscle sore- not hurt knees or any other body parts.
The bummer is I gain 2 pounds on the DAY of the marathon, the day where I burned 1800calories and only ate 1500 calories.....I do not understand my body some days. Oh well, I am not too worried about it, I am sure it will all fall back off this week!